friday - 16/6/06

I just came home from W271 cell..It's Belle's cell and she invited Lamb and I along. There were great games and the mini sermon was fantastic. The only downer was that the cell was too big, so they were split into two. I know many people got really upset because they were separated from their close friends and stuff like that. Belle was kind of upset and I hope that she feels better soon..

I prayed about him. I prayed to let me let go. To stop being so naive. It was the hardest thing I ever said. I had to force myself to say it. It hurts so much to know that you yourself had gotten yourself into this kind of predicament, and now you've no choice but to let everything go. How I envy..those who are happy and feel no hurt.

I'm so so tired right now. But I just dont feel like sleeping or what. I still have church tomorrow, and the day after that. I dont think I can take so many days of fellowship in a row.

But I wanna be more onz with God. I feel like I'm not there yet with Him. I've yet to commit everything to Him 100%.

Man I miss him so much.